前幾天的哭笑不得的事讓我想到K。上次看到她也是好幾個星期以前的事了。她是Stuyvesant畢業的高材生，唸書很會，作人很讓我受不了。與人相處絕對是可以學的或是改進的，有心的話，別人可以感受你的改變，但是如果固執不願聽別人的意見，或是拒絕溝通，當然是做人永遠失敗。
對於朋友，我以誠相待。盡可能婉轉的表達我的想法，坦白直說，以前我總是覺得好像沒有什麼事情不能溝通，直到碰到她，我認了。跟我沒關的事情，如果這樣我還要莫名其妙的被誤會，我只能雙手一攤，抱歉，i’ve tried my best, 如果你還是要這樣想，我也沒辦法。 it’s not really my business at that point. 年紀越大，越發現很多事情是不能強求的。我想有一部分類似是miaochiyi提到的吧。我想我還不到”我不喜歡你”這個詞的境界。我對於交朋友基本上還是很open minded的心態，三教九流都好， 誠意是我的底線。有時候表達方式的不同造成認知上的落差，我想都是能夠化解的。再怎樣南轅北轍性格的人，時候到了，頻率對了，還是會搭上話的。
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i felt the same way back then, now I realized it’s so pointless. I wore mostly black or dark colored cloth in high school, I thought that’d differentiate me from other more ‘ordinary’ people. Now I wear whatever color or style of cloth that suits me. I don’t think being a feminist has to do w/ what color of cloth I wear. Who has the right to says that pink implies feminine? But one bad thing is that I feel like I can never fully relax myself. I can see myself as a bold, impulsive, straight-forward person. Yet I can rarely release that side of me. Only occasionally I can lose my self consciousness in creating artworks. Onl then, I could find my real self and only to lose it again .